mandy's Cancer Blog
January 6, 2010
...Or whatever name suits your fancy. That’s what I’m calling it today. I had an awesome birthday until 5:30 p.m. when the receptionist called to tell us that our oncologist wanted to meet with us the next morning. We knew the news wouldn’t be good, but of course you go through every scenario and hope that it’s still just something “questionable” instead of something “definite.” Amazingly enough after a long night of waiting and wondering and imagining and little to no sleep, we were both shocked to hear that the cancer is back in T’s liver and possibly a lymph node in his chest wall, and possibly a spot on his pelvic bone. The last two are not definite, a PET scan will be done tomorrow. But in the doctors words “I would not have called you in to meet with me this way if I wasn’t sure this is cancer” referring to the 3 cm liver tumor that was not there 3 months ago on the PET. Things have flip-flopped in a hurry and we’re scrambling to get our footing. Teh talk is that the FOLFOX regimen will begin on Monday. I’m interested in anything anyone can tell us about this regimen and its side effects. This will be T’s 4th different chemo regimen.
We’re definitely in fight mode. We felt sorry for ourselves for a second, and then decided to conserve the energy for the fight, and the fight’s on.
January 5, 2010
T has a CAT scan today (actually he’s there this very moment)! It has been 3 lovely months! We told our oncologist that we wanted to make the process as snappy as possible to hopefully lessen the anxiety involved. He said instead of a followup appointment he would just call us with the results. The problem is I forgot to ask him when to expect a call. The bottom line is there’s no way to avoid the anxiety. Good thing it is a busy day today as usual, so we’ll pretend not to be preoccupied with cancer all day as we go about our business. It is also my 35th birthday, so here’s wishing myself a happy birthday with the only thing I really want…a clear scan!
Best wishes to you all, wherever you are in the journey.
Thanks for your support - 
Happy Birthday wishes, and may that “clean” scan call be the best gift of the day!
Continue to know good thoughts, health and happiness!
Larissa